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1. Psychology. Uncontrollable repetition of a particular response, such as a word, phrase, or gesture, despite the absence or cessation of a stimulus, usually caused by brain injury or other organic disorder. 2. The tendency to continue or repeat an act or activity after the cessation of the original stimulus. The act or an instance of persevering; perseverance.

I first heard this term in "group" conferences where we discussed our patients in the pain clinic. The word usually came from our clinical psychologist, Tim, and referred to some odd over-and-over behavior of someone not quite right. I remember it because I think I are it.

Sometimes I get into a conundrum and I can't get out--well, I can, but refuse to, and won't let go til it's whupped. I'm talking little details I can't figure out that I ought to just blow off. They become brainworms and I can't stop until the matter is put to rest. Yesterday it was how to get paragraphs not so far apart in InDesign (I got it, after much trial and more error). And this morning, by serendipity--not that I went looking for it out of need--I find there is an upgrade (not free) to a desktop notes program I used to use but discarded for a new love.

The old and now improved program is TurboNotes version 6. The "old" and not yet abandoned program is Quick Notes Plus. Both have the pluses and their minuses. And instead of doing what I should be doing with the premium hours between the first cup of coffed and my 10:00 meeting this morning, I have been trying to work out if I should upgrade. Shame on me for letting such a wee thing waste so much time! Sometimes I wonder about my sanity. Tim, buddy, where are you?


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Ah...I think it's called "avoidance" a simple way of coping by not having to cope.

We find ways of avoiding situations, things or tasks/activities. We all do it from time to time.

I've had a gal of paint and a roll of painters tape sitting in my downstairs bathroom for two weeks in preparation for a few days off work. Have I painted? Noooo, I reorganized the master closet and the attic.

Today? I'm repotting orchids. ;^)

It's ADD, which is not so much Attention Deficit Disorder but more like Attention Inconsistency Disorder. Most people with ADD have a tendency to "hyperfocus" and drill through a problem until a solution is found. It's only a problem if, say, you forget compulsory things like, letting your dog out to pee, or, skipping lunch, or, disregarding pre-existing commitments.

I go through the same exact routines. It's basically "what i'm doing isn't doing it for me right now so I'll put it on the back burner for a short while I get the juices flowing with something else." The beauty of this system is that truly unimportant things never get taken from the back burner, they dry up and are forgotten. The important things, like writing a book, or developing a web site module, if they're truly important than I find the subconscious is still hard at work on the matter even while you point your conscious attention at something else for a short while.

Now, after a short burst of avoidance, it's time for me to get back to setting up some more venetian plaster on my office walls ;)


Wow, maybe the fumes are getting to me, since I omitted or mispelled a few words in that previous comment ;)


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